Tuesday, August 14, 2012

A Tribute to Sadie

I don't really know where to start except to say that yesterday was one of the saddest days of my life.  I had no idea until she was gone just how much that dog really meant to me and my family.  I don't remember when or if I have ever cried that much.  The hardest part was watching David go through the same pain I was feeling.


Sadie was actually David's dog.  She was a gift to him on his 10th birthday.  (He will be 12 on Sept. 14th).  Our family had never owned a dog.  We were always cat people.  David begged us for a dog for years and years.  My husband finally gave in when we moved to the farm.  We always liked big dogs, and I don't like the idea of dogs in the house, so we never really had the space for one.

We looked online for several days searching for the perfect dog.  I still remember the first time I saw our little Sadie.  Her sweet face just jumped off the page at me.  I knew she was the one.  She was pictured with 2 other puppies.  One looked just like her, and the other one was black.  When we called the person with the ad she said, "One of the puppies has already been adopted, but there are still 2 left."  I was sad because I was just sure that Sadie was the one the other family had taken.  She was just so cute!  Well, surprisingly to me, the black one was gone.

The lady on the phone explained to us that the 3 puppies had been found together abandoned on the side of the road.  She told us the two puppies that were left were extremely close to each other, and would we consider taking both of them?  She even offered to waive the adoption fee on the second puppy.  My first thought was, "It has taken me 20 years to talk my husband into a dog.  Now she wants us to take two?  No way is he going to go for that!"

Well, after some discussion, John actually thought it was a good idea.  He said that way they would have some company, and Steven could have a dog too.  So we made arrangements to go meet the puppies.  They were in a doggie foster care.  They were in a pretty small pen in what almost seemed like an abandoned lot.  There was a house on the property, but it was pretty far away.  The dogs had an automatic feeder.  (I had never heard of that for dogs).  Basically, they received very little attention.  They were VERY excited to see us!!  However, Katy was quite scared.  (She still to this day is very cautious of strangers).

So, each boy picked out his dog.  I was amazed that for once they didn't fight over it!  A few days later we brought them home.  Since that day, those two dogs were completely inseparable.  They did everything together.  Their favorite thing to do was run to the pond to swim.  They would come home completely filthy!!  I think the thing I will miss most will be watching them run and play together every morning.  They loved each other so much, and they would have so much fun!  They were like twins.  They looked almost the same except that Sadie had a short tail, and she was a bit smaller.  They were definitely sisters from the same litter.

I don't want to go into too much detail about yesterday because it is just too painful to talk about.  But we did go get Sadie's body so we could bury her.  Katy had been hiding under the house all day.  I'm not sure if she knew what had happened.  She may just have known that Sadie was missing.  She was clearly sad and not acting like herself.  However, when we brought her over to see Sadie and say goodbye, it was truly the most heart wrenching thing I have ever witnessed.  Katy actually started to cry.  She knew in that moment that her best friend was gone.  Words cannot express what that was like to watch.

After that we put her away.  Then Steven, David and Jesse helped me bury her.  Steven did the most touching thing.  He suggested we take Sadie's collar and put it on Katy.  (She wasn't wearing her collar when she got hit by the car.)  We buried Katy's collar with Sadie.  He said, "That way, they will still have a part of each other."  What more can I say?  I am blessed to have two amazing sons, and I was blessed to have a really great dog.  Life is precious.  Never take it for granted. 

Thursday, August 9, 2012

21 Day Attitude Fast

It has been a while since my last post.  We have been going through a lot of changes in our family dynamic, and I guess I just haven't had the desire to write.  After listening to some awesome worship music by Kari Jobe this morning, I was inspired again.

I really feel like this summer has been a huge time of transition.  My husband has started a new job.  He is home every night now, but he is working crazy hours, so we almost see him less than when he was in Florida every week.  I have been praying and fasting for several weeks now about the situation.  I guess what I am really seeking is peace that this is the right job for him, or that God will send him something better.  I haven't seen evidence of either of those things yet, but I know that God is faithful.  So I will keep praying and keep believing.

School is starting back next week.  I guess I am ready.  I have tried to make the most of my time off.  I didn't get everything done that I set out to do, but I can say that it was a productive summer.  I spent a lot of time in prayer and reflection, and a lot of time in my garden.  I wish that there had been more time for both.  We didn't have the extra money for a vacation this summer, but the boys got to spend lots of time with their friends.  We have also had the pleasure to spend time with Jesse this summer.  He has been staying with us since late June.  I feel blessed to still have him in our life, and I will truly miss him when he goes home.

In addition to my regular fast, I have been doing Clarice Fluitt's "21 Day Attitude Fast" that I happened to find on her website.  I will include it here if anyone would like to join me.  It has been challenging, but just what I think I needed at this time in my life.

AN ATTITUDE FAST - 21 Days January 2010
Dear Ones:
In obedience to what the Lord is speaking to us at this time we invite you to join with us in a 21- Day Attitude Fast. In Isaiah 58 God speaks of a "chosen fast"; a fast that is pleasing and acceptable to Him. It is not a fasting of food so much as it is a fasting of attitudes. As we refrain or fast from certain mindsets and attitudes, then blessings will overtake us. Specifically, the promises that He declares in Isaiah 58:6-14.
Wonderful things such as: Your health springing forth His righteousness making the way before you Continual guidance by His Spirit And the ability to build and create in the midst of what seems to appear as utter chaos.
Just to name a few.

I submit to you the terms of this fast and ask that you prayerfully consider joining with us in this
21-Day Attitude Fast. We are beginning a New Year. There’s never a better time than this than to consider and put in practice a "Lifestyle" change. We will observe this fast during the weekdays of January 2010 with the goal of incorporating it into our lives throughout the entire year.
AN ATTITUDE FAST - 21 Days – January 2010
Week #1 – Read these scriptures: Ezekiel 28
; Isaiah 14; and Zachariah 3 & 4 ASK THE LORD THE FOLLOWING:
1. Show me what wealth has been hidden from me!
2. What is the Sound of Deliverance that is within me?
Stand up in the midst of your situation and say, "ENOUGH IS ENOUGH!"
Make a list of everything that is hindering you.
SHOUT "GRACE" 8 (eight) times to every hindrance and DECLARE that you will see the portion of your wealth in God that has been hidden.
Week #2 – Read these scriptures: Psalm 16; Isaiah 60; Eph 4:25 – 5:21 1. Get up and encourage yourself by singing or chanting a spiritual song. See yourself putting on garments of Glory – take off sadness, depression, and downcast thoughts with your mouth and put on Glory! Sing it! Sing it on yourself!
2. Memorize two key scriptures in Ephesians.
3. Say and ask the Lord "Lord show me my new portion that you have for me", then write it down. 21-Day Attitude Fast- Dr. Clarice Fluitt
 Week #3 – Read these scriptures: Numbers 23 (especially verse 21) SHOUT 7 (seven) times against false altars that have been built against your life and watch the blessings of the Lord open up over you.
Begin to say:
1. You are highly favored
2. People love you – see God in you – want to be a part of what you are doing.
Read: Matthew 21; Mark 11:10; John 12:13 Then SING UNTO THE LORD "I know you have gone before me and I am delivered! Read these scriptures:
John 14:12 (NIV)
I tell you the truth, anyone who has faith in me will do what I have been doing. He will do even greater things than these, because I am going to the Father. Mark 16:17-18 (NIV) And these signs will accompany those who believe: In my name they will drive out demons; they will speak in new tongues;
They will pick up snakes with their hands; and when they drink deadly poison, it will not hurt them at all; they will place their hands on sick people, and they will get well."
1 John 4:4 (NIV) You, dear children, are from God and have overcome them, because the one who is in you is greater than the one who is in the world. Philippians 4:13 I can do everything through him who gives me strength. John 14:14 (NIV) You may ask me for anything in my name, and I will do it. 1 Corinthians 2:15 (NIV) The spiritual man makes judgments about all things, but he himself is not subject to any man's judgment: Romans 8:9 (NIV) You, however, are controlled not by the sinful nature but by the Spirit, if the Spirit of God lives in you. And if anyone does not have the Spirit of Christ, he does not belong to Christ Matthew 16:19 (NIV) I will give you the keys of the kingdom of heaven; whatever you bind on earth will be bound in heaven, and whatever you loose on earth will be loosed in heaven." Here is an opportunity for us to come into the unity of His Spirit and to raise up a standard internationally in the midst of this present world condition. God is clearly speaking that we, His People, have the ability and power to change the world.
God bless you
Dr. Clarice